Shounen Dreams (A warm, flaky crust)

I was making such progress.

Then I made the mistake of thinking there was a purpose in taking it home with me, then being forced to take a plane back to San Antonio.

But, oh well.

That leaves me with my bass and my keyboard to teach myself how to play in the meantime, I guess.

.__.

Oh no not again

What I should do:

• My laundry
• The beginning of my soon-to-be-due paper
• Three math problems
• A study guide maybe

What I’m about to do:

• Maybe game for a few minutes
• Go to sleep

Ughhhh

tiresome:

prettypinkshoes:leavesofstone:xkatana:liveelaughlovee:laurenec:

FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:

• I miss you. Really bad.
• You mean the world to me.
• I’ll support you, since I can’t do more.
• It’s weird, but I like it. Thank you.
• I don’t think I can do it.

TEN things about yourself:

• I am melodramatic, probably
• I am easily mistaken for an extrovert
• I am especially weak against cute
• I am not as much of a pervert as I’m made out to be
• I do however have many strange kinks
• I don’t actually think they’re that strange though
• I find that my destiny lies with the sea
• I both love and hate people more passionately than anything else
• I am an emotional sadomasochist
• I have a tendency to fall victim to Red Light Fever

SEVEN ways to win your heart:

• Make me cute snacks
• Enjoy being with me
• Not be self-conscious or insecure
• Be determined and enthusiastic
• Wear cute things
• Be strong
• Don’t be a dumbass

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

• “What am I doing”
• Random dramatic phrases
• What anime I should be watching
• What game I should be playing
• What I should get done during the day
• Memories
• Penises (Thanks Peter)

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:

• Set my alarms
• Check that my outfit is prepared
• Check that my backpack is properly equipped
• Tuck my sheets into the crack between the bed and the wall

FOUR things you see right now:

• Paper Nana
• Harisen (paper fan)
• Pichu/Manaphy/Wooper/Omanyte
• Jason’s Deli Complimentary Cookie card

THREE songs that you listen to often:

• Aya Hirano - God Knows…
• Aqua Timez - Sen no Yoru wo Koete
• Otsuka Ai - Momo no Hanabira (Studio Live Version)

TWO things you want to do before you die:

• Fight for something
• Leave behind some kind of memory

ONE confession:

• I know I’m supposed to know by now, but I just don’t.

So I just spent the last like nearly four or so hours talking to Isabel.

Isabel of all people

Wouldn’t have expected that.

But it was actually quite a pleasant conversation.

I still find that I often can’t grasp what drives her or goes on in her head, but,

that’s not a big deal.

Though it never really like tore me up or anything, I was definitely always at least a little bit upset that I had never gotten any closure with her or anything.

But that’s no longer the case, which is a most pleasing fact.

Altogether it was a delightful chat, full of sharing, reminiscing, clarifying, and all manner of other nice things.

It really brightened my night, and just added to the list of things I am happy with right now.

What a party.

So, I wasn’t expecting it to be a superfun ultra bash or anything. I expected to see friends, have some fun.

BUT EVERYONE WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE ME

I feel bad, things really do suck without me. /conceited

I really had a great time, though.

In fact, Saturday itself was just awesome.

Woke up painfully in the morning, but then got to talk to Sensei and Shiori for awhile. Which was nice.

Then, Camille invited me to go to the Renaissance Festival with her family and Shiori. So, naturally, I couldn’t really turn them down.

Going there was fun, too. Camille’s great.

I can’t tell where she stands with me at this point anymore, though. It’s weird, I can’t tell if she’s like some kind of bizarre tsundere or what.

Either way, both she and her family are a barrel of fun. I didn’t have any time to go buy anything, but it was still quite enjoyable. Either way, I’ll be back soon, so I’ll pick up stuff at that time.

Six Flags probably isn’t going to hire me ;_; So I can’t count on any income, but I’ll figure something out.

After Ren Fest, we split up and I took a nap. I thought I’d end up being late for dinner, after I made myself all pretty. But they ended up somewhere around 45 minutes later than me. xD So that kind of sucked. But they did indeed get there eventually, and Camille + Abbi + Abbi’s sister = an incredibly amusing gaggle of girls. So much fun. I made my food a bit too spicy though unintentionally. And Abbi got all dressed up and quite impressively pretty, just to not go. Thought it was kind of silly.

Then Camille and I had a crazy drive in the car since it’s a fucking boat and I wanted to focus on music xD She was freaking out, but I was having a blast.

Once we made it to homecoming, though, she just kind of split for her other group of friends. Which was fine, seeing as I ended up basically meeting one person after another in rapid succession as soon as I got there.

Seeing everyone was great. I really, really missed my friends.

Oh, and I saw Zombieland the night before with Timmy and Stanley btw.

Which was also awesome. The movie was incredible, and I got to talk to Timmy about everything going on in my life.

It’s been a mess, just like always. So it was nice to get it off of my chest.

One thing I didn’t get to do was hit up Terramont to chill and think.

But that’s okay.

Anyway, back to the real story

So yeah, homecoming was cool. Danced with friends, ran around being ridiculous with friends talked with friends about the shit going on in their lives.

It was fun.

Isabel wanted to talk to me, for some reason.

She was rather surprisingly friendly and welcoming, so I was really quite curious as to what was up.

But I never found out. We were going to meet up today if I had time, but I didn’t. So now I’m waiting for her to sign onto aim or something. We’ll see.

Tori and I also wanted to see each other, but on the few occasions when we were actually able to find each other, Clare’s presence kind of discouraged any kind of enthusiastic greeting or anything Didn’t end up talking to her until she was about to leave.

Kinda sucked.

I owe her a dance or two, and we were both kind of hoping we’d get to that.

But oh well.

Got to meet the exchange students though!

And I always had at least someone to dance with, whether they were male or female. So, that was cool.

Afterward, I went to Avery’s party. I figured it might be a nice diversion before going to see Timmy again.

Once again, another instance where everyone was happy to see me.

The whole weekend was like one great big ego boost.

I realized though once the enthusiastic conversation and affection started to wind down that 95% of the females there were - no matter how incredibly cute - at least partially homosexual, and that out of all the male attendees I was the only straight one.
I started to feel that the party was just a little too gay for me. So I left for Timmy’s.
Only a small handful of people were there, though. :c But it was still cool. Didn’t do much other than hang out and talk, but I got to give out some last-minute hugs and stuff before coming home to sleep.

All-in-all, every night was rather well-spent.

My regrets are very few:
Didn’t get to talk to Isabel directly, didn’t get to dance with Tori, didn’t get to drink anything, didn’t get to go to my park.
And then, didn’t get to take Louise home, didn’t get to take my ukulele on the plane, and couldn’t find a few things at home.
Additionally, I would have liked to have seen a few other people. Like Ian, Sarah, the rest of the Timmy group, and Co-worker girl (Who’s been texting me again lately, weird).
But so many awesome things happened that I can just do all that another time.

Either way, though, I do wish I had been able to stay a little longer.

Just a little.

Things were so fun, so happy, so simple.

I miss it already.

I mean, I got a really nice welcome back. Katie and Kayla were there to pick me up, then we went out to Le Madeleine, goofed off, and did our homework together.
I love those girls.
But, still.
There isn’t all that much to look forward to starting from the moment I stop typing.

I had so much fun in the woodlands

I don’t even know why I came back anymore

I just wiped out a shit ton of homework, among other things I’ve been meaning to get to, thanks to the sanctity of the library.

Fuck yeah.

I’m starting to forget where I am though so maybe I ought to head home and sleep

Holy shit

Library graffiti sure is intense

She wouldn’t want me to cry

Besides, she’ll probably be okay and we’ll make it through another year

I wanna fight against all the late homework I’ve been letting pile up, but I’m just so tired ;_;

I killed thousands of zombies today and drove in a two-hour circle around San Antonio.

I think it’s understandable to crash now.

In order for there to be a hero,

there must first be a population that suffers.

Heroes do not exist unless there is misfortune.

I wonder if one day

I will feel strongly